So
although I often feel incapable of going to bed early, I know in my heart I
could if I so chose. It’s lovely to be in charge of life’s little things. Granted, I’m not always in complete control
of my sleep patterns. I’ve struggled
with insomnia for many years now, and there are few things more frustrating
than laying in bed completely exhausted, yet unable to rest. I had a run in with my old, insufferable
friend a few days ago. We stayed up all night together, watching the alarm
clock flash like a neon sign burning into the night.
Getting to bed late wouldn’t be such a problem if this were
still college, where 8:00 classes were intentionally never taken. These days my alarm sounds at the same
inconvenient time every morning, and refuses to let me push snooze. If I resist
waking, it will jump into bed with me, bounce on my stomach and demand cereal.
I love the alarm, but would better engage with and enjoy it without the cloud of sleep
deprivation clinging to me.
Because you just can't think or operate when you're sleep-deprived. Circumstances lately have me up until 3am, and I am not handling life well. My brain functions at an impressively low capacity even under optimal conditions....so keeping my poor handicapped synapses in mind, I'm going to try to change. Ignore the fact I'm posting this past midnight. I may skip the worm, but this night owl is going to
start retiring with the early birds.